She suggested something I took from the session to make an Emotional safety kit. Some things I can turn to when I want to self harm or escape the pain. I tend to start hurting myself because in that mind frame I think of myself so poorly so I take full responsibility, even though I wasn't at fault.
I spoke out on Facebook for some good things to write down about myself when I am feeling that low. So I can turn to the book and read all these nice things people think of me even though I struggle to think like that of myself. I think this will be a big breaking point for me to keep moving forward. I also watched an interview today that inspired me a lot. I shouldn't view my giving and loving traits as bad just because someone wasn't able to see how good it could of been for them and what I have to offer.
I made a playlist to start for my emotional safety tool kit. All these songs I have put on here have a lot of meaning and if you want to look at it the link will be below. I know music is one of my biggest outlets and is so personal to me.
I am sure I will have a day of anger and pain again that will come again. I have out stuff into practice.
Here is the playlist